Cherylane's trouble mind

It has been a while but I feel much better about my love life.
I wouldn't say that all is well, but my doubts are not worsering.
I start to thing that all Duane is doing it's talking to those girls....
I think he wants to feel loved so he 's trying to get it wherever he can. I think that he's trying to get the others girls hopes up in order to get his highs. He makes him feel good to chat with this girl and maintening that virtual relationship.
I have to make sure it remains virtual.
Duane acts like that because he doesn't get enough love from me....
The sad thing is that I love him to death but I'm not good at showing him...
I can see that he is tense and thoughtfull but I don't know how to relax him and make him feel at home...
That's so sad.
I think that I'm gonna see a shrink, I have issues that need to be adressed.
I came across few mails from his exes complaining about misunderstanding... That leds me to believe, because Duane can't give them what he is suggering in the mails, he has to back off all the time, hence all the misunderstandings...
All in the mouth, huh ?
Well I hope that he will never get further....

I feel a bit better, now that I've taken up this blog.
Yesterday I went clubbing with my sister. We had a helluva time  . Spent the whole night shaking and shaking my booty. Guess I had a lot of pressure to release... He did me good, I didn't score though   ... I was hoping to get few numbers, that would have done my ego tremendous good... Oh well, I had a lot admirative looks, it compensates a little    ... Men nowdays are so passive, they're waiting for women to make the first move or giving them clear and distinctive signs of their interests...
I checked Duane's mails, he hasn't been writting anything at all... It's really bizarre, he could have taken the opportunity of being away (out of my sight) to get in contact again with his virtual lovers. He didn't... I wonder why ? Would it be because to him it's an exclusive week days activity ?
I'd love it to be for that reason, because it would tend to corroborate the theory of this being just entertainment to him. This is just to put some spice in his boring work life...
He's coming back tonight... I wonder how things will be between us... I've bandaged some of my wounds from this week. I should be able to welcome him properly. I still feel a tension inside of me anytime I think of what I learnt those days... But until I decide to leave that relationship I have to put this aside...
Let you know tomorrow what happened...